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Amy Douglas invites you to move from judgment to self love in this episode
Amy Douglas: Hello again, beautiful humans. Amy Douglas here, your department head for family and parenting, as well as the coaching academy. And in this episode, I'mnna walk us through a coaching sequence where I'm gonna invite us to move from judgment to self love. And I'm kind of titling it. Ah, the manifester edition of this. So, as manifesters, we move through the world with an aura that's referred to as closed and repelling. Not because we're cold or distant, but because we're designed to carve paths, not follow them. We're initiators. We're trailblazers. We're catalysts. And yet, from the time we were small, many of us were judged for our intensity, punished for our independence, and deeply misunderstood for our need for space. So over time, those external judgments became internal ones. So think about the times that you've thought, why am I too much? Why can't I be, more like them? What's wrong with me? Well, that's how it begins. The self judgment. The inner critic. The loop that tells you you're never enough or always too much. But here's the truth. You're not broken. You're not difficult. You're different. And today, I'm not here to fix that, even though my five line wants to. I'm here to support you into reclaiming it. Judgment is a cage. Curiosity is the key. And self love, well, that's the door you walk through when. When you remember who the fuck you are. So while this is going to be, supporting you to move from judgment to curiosity and self love, this was a coaching sequence that I learned. God, I cannot believe it was nearly a decade ago. Ago, in my coaching education. And I've used it over and over and over again. Not only on myself, on, my clients, on my kiddos, of my friends, on my peers. And so it only felt appropriate to offer this in this beautiful, sacred, safe space for all of us manifestors. And I'm just trusting that whatever is meant to come through is exactly what will come through. And that's why I kind of titled it the Manifesto edition. Because you're going to see how we can weave in parts of our story that I just started to share with you into the judgments that we have had on ourself, which then often leads to our own self abandonment of our truth. So to prepare you for this part, I'm gonna invite you to tap into really, and feel how judgment interacts with your manifest or aura. So there's nothing to do here. There's no way to mess this up. Okay? I just can't say that enough. But I am going to invite you to be in a space, that you can listen to yourself and that you can be present for this. So I'm going to invite you to pause and close your eyes. And again, honoring that, you're in a safe, sacred space to go through this exercise with me. And my invitation here is for you to tune into a recent moment when you judged yourself. Maybe for how you spoke, maybe for how you reacted to something, or maybe how you needed more space or less input from others. And from that place, I want you to ask yourself this really important question. Was that judgment that just came up for you with the invitation that I just shared, Was that judgment even yours? Or did it come from someone else's fear? Someone's discomfort with your power, your pace? You're quiet or you're fire. As manifesters, our auras, don't invite others in. They impact others. That alone can trigger discomfort both in others and in us. So when you've spent your life being misunderstood, quite frankly, the easiest way to survive is to turn that misunderstanding into self judgment. Think of when we were little and all of these things were happening and we didn't know how to claim our own sovereign truth. but what if that judgment was never the truth? What if it was just a misunderstanding of your brilliance? What if that sharp edge was really a boundary? What if that silence was deep wisdom gathering? And what if that anger was the call to initiate something entirely new? I want you to sit with that, Sit with those things and really let yourself create a different perspective. That is the intention of this sequence. Okay. so in this next part, we're Going to explore how to transform those inherited judgments about your expression, your timing, your presence into deep loving curiosity. Curiosity about who you really are beneath all that conditioning. And from there, we'll begin to return to self love, self trust. An, unapologetic manifesto embodiment. Unapologetic. when I left my corporate life In January of 2019, I put a post out on Facebook and I said, from here on out, I think I titled it Taking the leap, or that I took the leap. There was an image of this woman droping me off a. Jumping off a cliff into a body of water. And that's what it felt like. I felt free. And I made a declaration. From here on out, I'm go going toa be unapologetically me. And little did I know later in 2019, human design is what is when human design found me and I began shedding the layers like I'd already done these coaching sequences. I'd already learned all this. But oh, my goodness, the level of unapologetic manifesto embodiment I didn't even know was possible. I couldn't put words to it yet. And so I'm just trusting that this guided sequence isnna offer you some layers of deconditioning to own this part of yourself unapologetically. So if you're ready, let's dig in here.
It's important to notice where we store judgment, because in a moment
Okay. It's important to notice where we store judgment, because in a moment, we're going toa transform that judgment with a new perspective. So here's my question. What is it that you say to yourself when you judge yourself? And I want you to reflect on what came to mind when I asked you to recall that recent moment where you judged yourself. What did you say? Were you thinking about that critical, judgmental way that we talk to ourselves? And now when you can recall that, I want to know, what would you say? Is the feeling attach to that for you? Is it anger? Is it resentment? Is it bitterness? Is it shame? All of those feelings completely take us out of our power. So I want you to know you're doing a great job just by following along, just by being present. And I really appreciate your willingness to explore this with me. It's for you. It's for me too. It's for all of us. And now I want you to go ahead and scan your body. If there was a place in your body where this feeling, where this, judgment lives, where might that be? Now, I'mnna invite you to really load up. I want you to load up on those feelings and those judgments. that you ve felt or that you've expressed. You know, you might be saying things out loud right now. Oh, I'm so inviting you to do that. Manifest or def Find throat, please let yourself express. Let it out. And then I want you to take a few deep breaths here and really just tune in. And if that place that you just, identified in your body had a voice, if that place could talk and you could be the mouthpiece, what might that part say? What might not be being expressed in your body that now you are giving so much loving attention and intention and giving it the mouthpiece and say, just tell me. Tell me what's going on and let yourself feel into that. Even pause this recording right if you need to really allow yourself to flush that out. There's no shame here. There's no wrong way to do this. And if you're feeling it, then doesn't it deserve to be expressed despite all the things we've been told and taught and shown and reprimanded for? Give yourself these moments to express. And when you're ready, we're gonna move on. M I want you to let this part of your body know that it's safe to share. And then I want you to check in again because, you know, sometimes o sometimes we're resistant to go in deeper, Even though we are such deep humans. And I want you to ask that part of your body if there's anything that you might have missed hearing or that wants to be expressed or heard that's not yet been said. Just give it some more time. Give it some more space. There might be two or three or five more sentences that are ready to be birthed from this place in your body and really sending it love and telling that you are that part of your body that it's safe to share. You might be really surprised. You also, you also might feel like you're making this up a little bit. And that's okay. Oh, that's so okay. Because we're not going to make any negative meaning out of this one. We're really gonna transform this. So once you really feel like you've let that part of your body, and if there are more parts, you beautiful, beautiful soul. Again, pause this. Give yourself all the time. You so deeply deserve to hear the messages that these parts of your body are ready and willing to express.
Ask yourself what judgment might have had a positive intention for you
And when you're ready to jump back in, I'mnn I'm gonna invite you to suppose that this judgment or these judgments have a positive intention for you and that it actually wants something positive for you now, what might that be? I mean, how come it was using judgment to get your attention? And what was the positive intention of that? Get curious. Was it protection? Was it the fear of being rejected? Was it to keep you from being too much? O, the times I've been told that in my life. But the positive intention is here to support you. So let's get curious. What else might this judgment want for you? M, I can't answer these for you. Only you can. And I want you to pause this as many times as you need to to flush this out. I mean, this is a timeless recording. So whenever you're doing it is perfect. So now you know that judgment has a very good intention for you and that it can teach us what wants to be heard. Usually there is some unmet need or desire or some aspect of our life that really wants our presence and our attention. And when it gets ignored for too long, it will default to judgments and hopes of finally getting your attention. You know, I often say our body is our greatest messenger. And the messages will get louder and louder and louder until you give it your attention. And in this instance, we're not inviting the messages to get louder. Not. We're not inviting our body wisdom to have to turn up the dial. We're tuning in and we're checking in and we're gaining clarity on these judgments that we felt, identifying if they're even ours, and then really reminding ourself that there was likely a positive intention for some unmet need or desire or again, some aspect of our life that really wants our presence and our attention. And we know how delicious it feels when somebody gives us their full attention. And I want you to thank that part of your body for allowing it to be expressed. So check in with your body, check in with that place and take a few breaths. And I want you to notice how it feels now compared to how it felt before. Now that it's had a chance to be heard, how does it feel Different? Really tune in. And I'm saying this probably more for myself than for you, but there are times where I have gone through this sequence and I only let myself get to the surface level. And M, that's a beautiful start. But one of the coaching practices that I love so much is allowing yourself to go what we refer to as 5 why's deep? Like why why y. So if you go 5 w'deep so if you came up with what the positive intention for this judgment, or if you came up with just really acknowledging these judgments on yourself, I'D love for you to take it doesn't have to be right now, but an opportunity at some other point in time to let yourself go deeper. It's beautiful whatever you uncovered today. And we have more to go. But I do want to presence that sometimes we don't let ourselves get to the root. And when we can take ourselves five wise deep. It's like acknowledging the judgment and asking yourself why that judgment is there. And whatever you answer you re with and second is why is that the answer? And then whatever is answered with that why, why is that answer? And you're getting deeper and deeper and deeper. I remember one of the first times I did this with a coaching client. She was looking for support. I first started my coaching career more in like the health and wellness space. A 35 year recovering binge eer for fuck's sake. It is definitely an area of my life where I have had a lot of focus and attention, and intention in my life and it just felt natural to support others through what I had learned. Hello, three, five. And so I had this woman who really had a deep desire to lose weight, but didn't want to do it in all the traditional ways. She'probably a manifestor looking back now, but you know, this was so many years before I knew about human design. And I remember I went through this sequence with her and she said she wanted to lose weight so that she could fit better in her clothes. And so I said why do you want to fit better in your clothes? And she said, you know, so I don't have to buy new ones and I don't struggle well, why don't you want to have to buy new ones? And I kept going and I kept going. That's kind of how it goes. And we got to the fifth why and her why was she felt like her husband wasn't attracted to her anymore and she felt like their relationship was falling apart and he was slipping through her fingers. So she thought if she lost weight he would love her again. Oh, the not enoughness in that, the pain. And so there's my invitation. If you didn't let yourself go deep enough, that's okay. And you can do this for yourself or for others any given time to create some clarity of what's going on. Okay. So if you were able to acknowledge now that that part of your body has had a chance to be heard and it feels different, I want to thank you again and you're doing so fantastic. But I'm going to switch gears and we're going to do a little different kind of exercise that's going to tie all of this together. And I am just trusting that you're still here on this ride with me. I have this deep intention that whoever this is for it'it's meant to have, a breakthrough, an aha, a moment that can be defining, that can shift the trajectory of how you begin to treat yourself going forward. So this is the easy part because you've already done the hard part. So hooray, let's celebrate that.
This exercise has four parts: anger, fear, request, and love
And what we're gonna do is instead of loathing on ourselves or being mad for looking or feeling a certain way about ourselves, I want to invite you into transforming that to a new perspective. And this part of the exercise has four parts, and you're going to be familiar with these. But the four parts are anger, fear, request, and love. And I'm going to cue you with a sentence starter and then you're going to complete the sentence. So invitation to get pen and paper. You can't do this wrong. Okay? And if you're driving, like I would be possibly listening to this or walking, just say them out loud. Let yourself say them out loud. Say them proud. There's no wrong way to do this. Alrigh. So here are the four parts. So the first one is anger. Now, we start with anger. We start with anger. Hello, manifesters. We start with anger because we know what anger feels like. But anger behind all of the judgment is usually a feeling of anger. Why is that? Because there's usually something that we could be doing, maybe we're capable of doing and we're not doing. This is insert that boundary inst that informing, you know, insert that dropping the people pleasing. Right? Those are the things that we could be doing that, quite frankly, we're capable of doing. But I'm going to say we're choosing not to. And I always say when people say to me that they don't have a choice, I always lovingly remind them that that belief pattern is also a choice. So, starting with anger, complete the following sentence as if you're inner critic and we all have them. We're talking out loud to you. Okay, here we go. Anger. I'm angry at you. 4. Fill in the blank. I'm angry at you, Ford. Remember, this is your inner critic given a mouthpiece, sharing with you these things. I'm angry at you. Four. Next is fear. Fear that something bad will happen if we don't change. If you don't change, I'm afraid you will. If you don't change. I'm afraid you will fill in the blank. As you're doing this, remind yourself this is for you. You're beautiful. Give yourself a big hug for taking this step. Next is request some action, no matter how small, that moves toward change. I recognize that you really want to live the best life ever. My request is that you let go of blank so that you can blank. I'mnna repeat that. I recognize this is your inner critic talking. I, recognize that you really want to live the best life ever. My request is that you let go of a blank so that you can blink. You know that inner wisdom that our body has for us that we don't always tune into. I can only envision what's coming forward for you. And I'm holding you in such deep love. And finally, love. Your inner critic is saying, I love you. I love you. You deserve blank. Fill in the blank. What do you deserve, manifester? What do you deserve? This is a tricky one for me with a completely open heart. Center o worthiness, deservability, so much, not enoughness there that I've worked through. But these are four really, really powerful statements that you're creating for yourself. And I just want to celebrate that you've done this, done this so well. Thank you for even just being willing to try it with me here today. Give yourself a great big hug. You can ask yourself these four. I call them like mad libs, right?
Anytime you're noticing the judgment and you were deeply desiring to transform that judgment
Sentence starters. Fill in the blank. Anytime you're noticing the judgment and you were deeply desiring to transform that judgment, whether it was yours, and you adopted it and believed it was yours. Oh, my goodness. Think about the things that you say out loud, on repeat, and just ask yourself, God, where'd that come from? Because if it wasn't yours, is it really that authentic? I want us to look at the judgments the same way and learn how to transform them. First by being curious, and then to deepen our self. Love. when we lead with love, we're really unstoppable. But it takes time and intention to get there. I am not dismissing that in any way, shape, or form. It is powerful, it is potent. It is necessary so that. That. That sequence, especially when we've given the body parts that we are identifying, when we speak things about ourselves, we feel it somewhere in our body. And I refuse to let that energy manifest into something I don't want. We've all heard the words dis easase. And when we harbor these feelings, these judgments, these uncertainties, these insecurities, and so Often they're not even ours. They've been projected upon us. But when we harbor those'in our body. Oh, I could do a whole episode on my ailments. I'm. I'm through. I'm in another round of adrenal fatigue. God, did I say that on a recent podcast. It's. It's real, you guys. It's real. It's real. And so these are the ways that we can tap in and tune in to what's going on in our body so we can support it and release it. Because these are not our truths. They're just not. Okay, thank you so much again for your willingness to move through this with me. And as you come back into your body and your breath, I want you to remember this. You were never meant to fit into the mold of what the world expected you to be. You were designed to move first, speak truth, and shake the ground a little. I have to laugh. Because judgment may have been your survival strategy. And do you hear me saying that in past tense? Say it with me. Judgment may have been, may have been your survival strategy, but it was never your truth. Curiosity is your bridge, self. Love, is your anchor. And peace, it's your birthright. So moving through sequences like this can help us glean that clarity that we so deeply deserve. And while I would love to be doing this coaching sequence with you, one on one, you can be doing this for yourself. Honoring the truth that comes forward, even if it feels like sometimes you're making it up, it's beautiful. So take this moment to reclaim your energy, your timing, your voice, and walk forward not with explanation, but with embodied knowing. You are not too much, you are just right. And the world is better when you move exactly as you are. Can't you relate to that? When we get to move exactly as we are, and I don't do this all the time, like, right, I do not have this perfected. Can't even stand that word anymore. And I think I'm not meant to have it perfected. I'm meant to be in environments, situations, groups of people, projects to help shine lights on my parts of myself that I didn't even know I was harboring. So that I can take moments to do sequences like this, to release that judgment and reclaim my worth. Thats the intention here is to not hold it in, to not perpetuate this, even if it was what was projected on us all along, even if were still met with it out in the publics eye. The more that you release these judgments of yourself, the More. What others say, quite frankly, are just none of our business, right? That's why I say that all the time. It's none of our business because the only thing that matters is what I think of myself. And if I'm judging myself, guess what? I'm going to attract. I'm go going toa attract people that judge me because that's the place that I attract from. So I am trusting that this sequence is helping you release some of that judgment. And if this journey spoke to something deep in you, I really invite you to keep going. Journal what came up? Initiate a conversation you've been holding back. Take one bold action that, aligns with your truth. I've been doing this. I've been doing this more and more and more. I often ask myself, gosh, do I want to be in my comfortable hell or my uncomfortable heaven? Because whatever is comfortable and familiar now, guess what? The more we practice another way of being that becomes comfortable too. It's only uncomfortable when it's unfamiliar. And so let's step into it. And if you're craving more support, more connection, or more guidance on your manifesto path, I'd love to walk that with you. You can find me in the manifesto community in a variety of places. I do the human design readings. I'm one of Holly's recommended readers. I'm a support teacher, for the manifesto Mastery Amazing course. That was truly life altering for me in so many ways at one of the most challenging times in my life. Even in moments where I had deep fear of, the investment I made in myself, gosh, I could do a whole podcast episode of how willing I am to invest in my children, how willing I was to invest in keeping, my dog alive, through his cancer diagnosis in 2014, 2015.
Many times I don't give myself permission to invest in myself
I take that back. How willing I, am, to support others through their own growth journey and invest time, money, resources. And then often I don't do that for myself. Isn't that interesting? I don't see the value in it. For myself, yes, I do. I see it. It's just I don't give myself permission like I so willingly give permission to help my children, my loved ones. What would that feel like to give yourself permission to really devote the investment that you deserve in yourself? I can't, I cannot speak enough about how transformative it is. I'm also, one of the coaches in the coaching academy. So, if you're desiring, there's many ways that you can connect with me. And I'm really, like I said, I'm just really trusting that this is touching on a really pivotal point in your life. Because this is timeless whenever you listen to it is exactly perfect. And maybe, maybe you'll be like me and some episodes I listen to more than once. And so invite yourself to connect with these parts of yourself that are so deserving of being heard. And until next time, move with purpose, love with sovereignty, and never forget that your impact is your magic. I love you.
M That's a wrap on another episode of the Hunting for Purpose podcast
Speaker A: M That's a wrap on another episode of the Hunting for Purpose podcast. Thank you so much for tuning in and letting us speak into your life. We hope that you found everything that you needed by listening to this podcast episode. And please remember we have many, many more episodes that you can tune into as well. The best compliment that we can receive is to be informed of our impact. So if you desire, please do share this podcast or another one publicly on your social media and tag us at the manifested community sharing your thoughts on how these words have impacted you today. That brings such joy to our hearts. Thank you once again for being here and we will see you in another episode of Hunting for Purp.
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